Sunday, January 9, 2022

*Basically Just Mirror Selfies From the Last Six Months*

*crickets* 

*walks in and sits down cross-legged* 

Hey, people. 

Let's talk. 

I wanted to start this with "weelll, it's been a hot minute" but that's how I started my last post like this back in July when I caught up on the first half of the year. And ya girl not tryna be redundant, here. 

But it has been awhile. And a lot has changed since July 27th. (No, this isn't another relationship announcement—sorry to disappoint. ;) ) 

Over the last few months, I've started several times to write this post, but it either didn't feel right at the time, or I had something else more pressing to do, or I flat-out couldn't bring myself to put everything into words and share it with the world. Not that I have some horribly dark secret that I have to divulge here, but because writing has often been therapeutic for me. I feel like, in some way, having to put everything in words and make it make sense helps me deal with things. 

So I'm here now. 2021 has been a little sucky tbh and I don't want to start 2022 without dumping all this mess out here. 


• • • July 

The last week of July included a church picnic and getting temporarily stranded at work when my car wouldn't start (Dad to the rescue <3). And a camping trip with my family and cousins the same weekend I turned 21—72 hours of campfire smoke and messy hair and laying in a hammock and eating food you cooked over an open flame and laughing until you hurt was B L I S S. 

(Swimming in the river so cold it takes your breath wasn't the most blissful part, but all for the memories, right??) 








• • • August 

Highlight of the month was the amazing week spent with my best friend, and the two days we spent in Colorado. <3 Also, started my next-to-last semester of community college (S C A R Y), lots of Saturday night summer concerts at work, meeting an internet friend for the first time, and catching sunsets and little special moments every chance I could. 









Idk why we all look like we're on crack here, but I'm posting anyway bc we cute





• • • September 

Looking through pictures from September is hard for me. The first picture of me? Dressed for the lake, jean shorts and sunglasses on my head? That was Sunday afternoon. A family day at the lake. Everything was normal and good. Tuesday night I got home from work to find out that my mom had spent all day in doctors offices. Thursday was a biopsy. Friday was a diagnosis of breast cancer. As the following days and weeks were filled with doctors appointments and tests and more questions than answers, we all felt like we'd been sucker-punched. 

For months, we'd had a family vacation planned for the last week of the month. We stuck to those plans anyway and spent nine days in the beautiful Florida Keys—swimming and sunbathing and boating and fishing and exploring and eating sooo much good, fresh seafood. It was incredible. 



my work peeps! Saturday night crew is my fav <3











• • • October 

Highlight of October was...quitting my job. xP  Yeah, legit came back from vacation, worked two days, then turned in my two week notice. I love everyone I work with, but the job itself had been a stressful environment for awhile now and, after considering it many times, I decided I couldn't do it any longer. I turned in my notice around the first of the month and worked the next two weeks. 

Also... more studying, more housesitting, applying for new jobs, applying for internships next semester, and a quick one-night trip to Kansas to see my bestie get engaged. <3  And my dog, my baby and best buddy for the last ten years, passed away. </3

So... yep. It was definitely a month of emotions. 

My face right before quitting... 

... my face right after.

Work homies <3



Not me photo-bombing the adorable couple... they stuck with me for LIFE soooo


got new glasses!

• • • November 

Job interviews and starting training at a new job. Interviews for internships and lots and lots of studying. Got to see my homie again <3  Housesitting again. Mom started chemotherapy. Three trips to the sheriffs office to get fingerprinted (long story). Lots of late nights and little sleep. 

job interview OOTD

day on campus OOTD



stay in and do nothing OOTD


#mood


• • • December 

Christmas shopping. Spending hours in the school library studying for finals. Bought my first Birkenstock lookalikes (AND I LOVE THEM). Finished my next-to-last semester of community college. Got a cavity filled for the first time in my life. 

And then all heck broke loose xD  The weekend before Christmas, my brother was in a bad wreck and spent four days in the hospital. Long story short, everything is okay and he's going to be fine, but we were all a little shook up for awhile. Since then, our house has been full of visitors and food and Christmas goodies. It feels so good to be loved by people <3 



a Faith in its natural habitat 




So yep. That's where we're at. Maybe I'll be back around soon-ish—there's lots of words in my head these days, sometimes I can get them out and making sense and sometimes it's just a nonsensical jumble. For right now, life is crazy wild and writing or little else that isn't an absolute have-to can be priority. 

So this is just me dropping in to say I hope everyone reading this is doing well. :)  Drop a note and update me on your life!



And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 
// 2 corinthians 12:9

22 comments:

  1. Praying for your mom and your family right now 💙🙏

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  2. I have so been so blessed by how you've handled all that life's thrown at you this year. Keep being awesome. <3

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    1. Awww... I appreciate you infinitely, dear <3

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  3. praying for you. praying for your family. and I hope that this year brings better news, better things, and overall healing <3 <3

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  4. I'll be praying for your mom! Two of my brothers crashed cars last year so I know what it's like to be shooken up that way. They're ok though. So glad your brother's ok too! All your sunflower-y outfits are SO cute ��

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  5. Hey girlie! These posts always make me smile... love your use of asterisks there at the top! XD

    But I also wanted to comment and say I appreciate your real-ness. You’ve had a lot of hard things going on but I know these things will teach you a lot about yourself and make you stronger. Life can be so painful and harsh. But I appreciate your friendship and know I’m always here if ya need anything. <3

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  6. Hi Faith;
    I was only saying to Marilyn(my twin) that we haven't heard from Faith recently. It was a nice surprise to see your e-mail today. Faith I pray that your mom is doing okay. She will be in my prayers. You sure have been busy. when you writ next I am sure you will be writing about your last semester is over and you have your degree. We are still cleaning and de decorating the Christmas stuff. Our tree was about 8 feet and stayed healthy until we took it down. It is out at the curb waiting for the sanitation to take it for mulch. Glad that your brother is okay.
    HAPPY,HEALTHY 2022 to you and yours.
    Marion

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    1. Yes, that likely will be my next life update! :) Sounds like a lovely Christmas tree. Hope y'all are doing well <3

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  7. Hi Faith, It was nice hearing from you. You sure had a busy six months. Congratulations on getting closer to your degree. Glad your brother is doing better. Sorry about your mom having breast cancer. She will be in my thoughts and prayers. It is hard to believe Christmas has come and gone. I received lots of books and other gifts,too including a few DVDs of old movies and television series. We are still packing up some of the Christmas decorations. The live tree is nice ,but it sure makes a mess. We will be finding needles for quite a while. Good luck with your new job. Wishing you and your family a Happy and healthy 2022. God Bless.
    Marilyn[Marion's twin].

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    1. I got several books for christmas as well! Thank you :)

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  8. Aww Faith, so good to hear from you again! Prayers to you and your family! 🥰

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  9. *hugs* Praying for you, Faith!
    I always enjoy reading your updates and it was so fun to see all of the pictures.

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  10. *hugs* Prayers for you and your family, Faith! Especially your mom. My mom has been through both uterine and breast cancer in the last five years...I get it. God is good...all the time. ❤

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    1. It's good to hear from someone who's been there <3 thanks, Tori!

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  11. Hey Faith! I wandered over here after hearing from you on my blog. I don't remember you having this back when I was blogging regularly, or maybe I just didn't realize you did! Either way, I'm glad I found it and hope you'll post more soon.

    I'm so sorry to hear about the rough 2021 you had. I hope your mom is doing all right, but, even if she's not, I know God is still with you. He truly never leaves, even when we feel so lost and broken. I'm praying for you!

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    1. Hey, Rachelle! I've been "here" for several years, on and off :D

      Thank you <3

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